Friday, December 30, 2005
I have gotten back to reading. My pile of books (listed here) is rather long. Obviously I haven't kept up for a while. I got two books on the list read and am reading a third. It's not on the list, however, because it's a science book. Hyperspace by Michio Kaku.
The hyper state my mind was in has degraded to agitation. I hope I can read tonight. Gonna watch a couple of episoded of Six Feet Under first. Don't have a clue how that will affect my state of mind.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Holiday spirit comes and goes for me. I had it quite a bit of it while shopping with my sister this past week. One day, while putting some decorations about and listening to carols, it was there, too. After sitting a while at this computer, however, it seems to fade. I guess it's always been on and off with me. In this photo I look like a deer caught in the headlights. My brothers look happy and my sister is genuinely photogenic. I always hated to be noticed. I don't know why because I think I also craved attention.
I love this photo despite my terrified look. Several years ago I thought I had accidently thrown it out. I felt sick every time I thought of it. When I discovered that my sister still had it, I was so relieved. I'd been so sure she'd given it to me.
I am told that I always look the same in photos. My husband and son easily pick me out in any old photo I happen to show them and both comment "You haven't changed." Even when I manage to smile, apparently. I feel the same, mostly, but I don't really think I look the same.
I still do my main blogging at http://www2.Writing.Com/main/books.php/item_id/884810/page/1?rfrid=airycat but think I should post something here now and then.